wonder. land

over.

2012-01-11T18:30:00.000-08:00

hello sem break!
am having my last paper today.
everyone get their ass in holiday!

but.

am having resit paper.

this is sad.

last post for this blog.

gonna get a new one. new life right.

kissbang.
pointless post. wish me luck ppl.

hangover

2012-01-11T07:59:00.000-08:00

How much I hope I can get drunk now.

How much I hope I can turn back time & make things right.

How much I hope I will never be your girlfriend.

How much I hope I am having sem break now.

Okie,

I hope to get drunk, cause I love hangover.

Slap me bits. :X

treat me good.

treat me nice, god. :)

I miss him in the hometown,

憾

2012-01-03T02:49:00.000-08:00

人生，有许许多多的交叉点。

现在，我的人生正出现了这一个交叉点。

停着，不知该往哪儿继续走。

想着，每一条道路会是怎样的结果。

原来，我在乎的不外乎是别人的眼光。

渐渐，坚强找上了门，

渐渐，寂寞慢慢敲了我的心门，

渐渐，想孤独做朋友。

是怎么了，没什么。

全部事情不由得我来抉择。

只是，只能，把自己的未来自己来创造。

我，是，怎，么，了

Christmas eve

2011-12-24T23:44:00.000-08:00

Period on the period eve?
Oh lord, you must be kidding me.

YOU MUST BE MAKING A JOKE WITH ME!

It is so sad that I am having period on that day.

Well, tho not much special, but

Period is really ruin a girl, whole day mood gone!

What I wanna do is rest rest and REST

Oh and the day before,

helloh, emotional unstable!??

W-H-A-T?!

You must be laughing at me =(

I did sth real childish until I feel ashame of myself.

Oh what, I am seriously childish.

I never notice until, my emotional get back on truck.

I am sorry to you, friend.

I was like a fool and a joke around your friend,

but LIKE I CARE?

I just wanna be myself, just wanna you guys be understanding.

Lesson learnt, NEVER FOOL WITH A GIRL WHEN SHE IS HAVING PERIOD!

Oh Merry christmas, all dearie

newyear

2011-12-18T21:08:00.000-08:00

Jingle bell,jingle bell...
I smell Christmas all the way to shopping mall.
This year, Christmas gonna be a bore one.

Final is all around the corner.
Like next week,
stress in a day but now, feel like nothing.
Shucks. =/

Went shopping w/ mum, bro and dears.
Spent too much, 1k.
Felt guilty. Shouldn't have to spend this much.

We are not in a rich family,
so 1k is a huge amount for my family.
This is not good. Should earn money myself and spend myself.

Well, gonna start study all the way from now.
Not gonna fail like again and again.
I just dislike study much.
but who cares? we are force to study to have a better life?

Take it and bear with it

guys with balls

2011-11-21T23:26:00.000-08:00

first time I blog with my phone.
tho it is not Iphone, but hello,
it is also a smart phone with a lower price.

okay. never proud of it.
but still I love my smart phone alright?

assignment(S) are killing my brain cells and beauty sleep.
aww. I hope to stop the time and finish all assignmen.
like a kid!

well birthday in the weekend,
my mummy can't get to fetch me back.
lonely birthday this year?
oh, baby girl, never expect much then no disappointment.

besides, do I ever say,
this world full of terrible people,
they come to you cause you can take advantage from you,
scary much.
I still believe that true friends do appears.

I love some of my friends. I do.
but some of them just come and take advantage.
oh you guys, suck!

I would want to ask,
helloh world, where is all the gentleman go?
why they have no gentleman in this world already?
why.

could I have a gentleman boyf as my husband
and stay together until both of us die?
but where is this boy exist?

I not happy!

醒悟？

2011-11-18T05:54:00.000-08:00

原来，那么的可悲，

那么的无价。

高估自己了，

贬低自己，来捧别人上天，不容易。

讨好别人，而伤了自己，

何必呢？

为什么不学会爱自己多一点？

为什么永远都学不会，被人伤了，就振作。

为什么都学不会放下？

我能什么都不理吗？

我能什么都伪装吗？

原来，我什么都不是。

十一月，2011

我真的真的很不喜欢你。

生日，算了吧，

没人会记得我这个平凡的人

November.

2011-11-08T04:24:00.000-08:00

Bye October, and hey November.
Still that, be good for me like pls?

B.U.T
no. you never be good for me!
I hate it! :(

It should need to be my favourite month as in it's my birthday month.
& oh, I never like you, Nov, 2011.

I wanna be good in this month,
I wanna be happy, be silly, enjoy much.
Things just not gonna work out in the month.
Suck much, right suck much.

I always thought, I could leave it all behind,
don't care too much, don't bother.
Just make myself to be happy.
I don't like myself, I don't like the kahyee gonna mad at herself in a small matter.
Don't like the kahyee could be cry so easily.
Dislike the kahyee being unhappy for a freaking small matter.
So not ky.

No expectations, no disappointment.
Helloh, this birthday, am not gonna expect.
Am not happy to be 19!
I need my teens life back.
I need my high school life back.
I need the ky whom not get mad in the high school.
I need the happy go lucky's ky back.
but why as people grown up, everything change.

Too much in my mind,
too little in the reality.
people are scary,
you don't know who you gonna treat with the true heart.
Scary. horrible. terrible.
& we, gonna stay tough.
that's life.

I dislike november,
until today. it's 8! :(

breakup

2011-10-21T09:02:00.000-07:00

they said,

boys are from mars where

girls are from Venus.

Sometimes while I am watching movie,
those love movies.
I was like woah, so true of the story.
It is totally play out what we, people do in our own life.

Couple ran into quarrel,
girls non stop thinking bout bad thing,
boys shut up and so on.

For me, I think,
if you really love a girl,
and you sure the girl is loving you,
no matter how much she needa break up,
she never mean it.
Just she wants you to pull her back to your side
and hold her tight.

If you love her,
you never think of breaking up
no matter what have happen between you guys.

Understanding, tolerate.
you could find out,
your girlf is actually very cute.

The best thing is,
you find someone you love whom love you back.

&

Love her, get her, and hold tight.
never think of breaking up.

if you break a girl's heart for N times,
then she still loves you, treat you nice,
take good care of you,
I guarantee you she is the one for you.

Boys, girl's mind are actually easy.
One sentence can get them back,
make them smile.

Sorry, and I love you.

O.R

I love you, please.
hug her tight. :)
then I sure most of the girls would smile
and calm down. :)

smart

2011-10-16T07:46:00.000-07:00

A girl once said
"Let boys to catch you,
don't go and catch them. "
B.U.T
what if I am ugly and no one will spot me?
Things go the diff ways.

People still say, the god is fair.
then, why everything that I've faced I feel so unfair.

Random post.
Just I think everyone have a different thought
as people grown up, stick with different gang, live with different life.

Don't be stubborn over a thing.
learn to let go, pull back and learn to live well, stay happy.
That's what a life mean to be.

Never regret sth that we've done for ourselves.
Once regret, once we fail ourselves.

Stay happy, live happy.
enjoy life.

I been emo last night, but I tell myself,
kahyee no, you couldn't be like that.
No one like you if you continue your attitude like this.
Right, I've to change my attitude, and my temper.
Change to be a lovely person, change to the better one.

Every time, when I was emo, temper trying to get hot,
then I tell myself, it's okay, nvm.
care less, love more, smile more.
be happy, smile like a kid!

I want to smile and laugh like a KID! :D
I want to laugh like wheeeee'

difference

2011-10-09T00:48:00.000-07:00

Define love.

Define like.

Differentiate like and love.

tell me what is this sentence means,
I like him but I love you.

Had a suffer night yesterday, I can't get to sleep.
I don't know things could turn this way.
I am sorry for my words to others,
but your sentences seriously do hurt.

Why need to love?
why can't just be normal?
Why we got both of us a harsh time.

I care too much, expect too much.
Things come and go, you dislike me.
think the worst of mine.

Still, I am the fool
loving you for no other reasons.
loving you for so long and never wanna give up.
I was like a fool,
treat you good than others.
Like a fool,
miss you like nobody business.
Like a fool,
care for too much & worry.

I need a rest too,
inside heart, never stop loving.

you said you need a rest,
but could you tell me, you will turn back your head?
I am waiting for the answer.

myself

2011-10-06T05:38:00.000-07:00

Be back yourself, get back the life that what you used to.
Never go have a new life with the new person.
As in, go a life with a better person,
never go get a new life with the person that will make you worst.

am serious, never ever try the thing.
I scare. scare the thing.
Never step in it anymore.
I never want a life like this.

I shall forget bout him.
No more him,
no more Jay,
no more him in me.

backontrack.

2011-09-19T21:49:00.000-07:00

College started the first week.

Well, this is the very first time I don't feel like going back to college.

Just I enjoy my holiday mood until now.

Holiday mood still ONZ

study mood TuuuT Shut off.

Things haven't get back on track.
I just don't want to face the reality but
no anytime for me to waste.
This will be the harsh sem, I know.
I just don't want to come back and feel stress.
I can't handle all these things.
I ain't tough.

The first week, no stress yet am not happy.
Seeing the same faces, I don't know what react shall I give.
Enough. I don't want go back to the past.
Hiding myself in the corner,
I wanna be outgoing.
Never go around with one person only.

Be social a bit.
Get a pretty life and wonderful.
Enjoy college.
& so on.
Hope I could do this well.

Besides, you make me become mature.
Thanks god.
I am not going to put so much effort.
Just if you did put some effort on me.

still that, for me, boys are all the same

alright

2011-09-18T20:52:00.000-07:00

I would be alright.
Telling myself, not to simply fall for any guys.
He is breaking me to pieces slowly.
I can't handle all this.

It's been so many times I fail to love.
But I hope the next one will be the long lasting.
Seriously, so I don't need you to take care.

Stop flirting. I hate it.
I might fall for you,
so never play with the fire.

I am so naive, naive to believe
what a drunktard had told.
It's okay.
Make up my mind,
It's enough for us.
Just forget everything.
Don't come my side and flirt with me.

I want a partner to stay forever not just play.
I not those girls that could play with.
Everytime I put all the effort.

Kahyee, it's just a kiss.
forget bout it.
cause he never love you.
Stop being a dumbass.
Get another good post soon.
Feeling is so shucks right now.
Mix

ache

2011-09-17T20:46:00.000-07:00

Thought he will be the one,
like the difference one.
BUT
boys are all the same.

He gave me another impression
which are he is the man
but the impression just shut off like this yesterday.

Am stupid, stupid enough
to go and hear whatever he said to me.
Stupid enough to believe and trust.

I shall stop, stop get over boys.
I shall stop, stop act like a baby.
I shall stop, stop being so naive.

Just please, you, get lost from me.
I dont wanna fall any deep.
Enough, I am tired of chasing love.

Yesterday was just a dream,
sweet dream
but today morning it broke.

smurf

2011-09-14T00:18:00.000-07:00

I smurf you!

Watched smurf at Pyramid yesterday! :D
Was a great great night that I enjoy much.
Bought chatime and sneak into cinema. :D

It's so nice with a chatime while watching movie.
SMURF! :D
I hope there are real in the world, smurf lots.

Had a great night with him as well.
Hope things could turn better and no expectation anymore.

Imma happy girl these days.

I smurf my dear and him.
Smurf you guys

missathing

2011-09-12T08:40:00.000-07:00

I thought, I love him still,
until can't put him down.

but reality prove me wrong.

I thought, I love him until forget myself,
but things turn out in other way.
I just don't open the heart to other people,
Now I know,
there are still many nice guys are single and available.
still many boys are waiting for me. :)

Kahyee, you have changed!

累了

2011-09-09T09:11:00.000-07:00

说真的，我累了，心淡了。

的确，很累。

决定了，那个日子之后，

我会彻底的放弃。

付出太多，得不到回报。

这并不是我要的。

等待，一段时间了。

没有再多的时间给我浪费，

得不到，就说再见，

最多，孤单时，还会想念。

想念还是怀念，不清楚了。

全部人说，我太傻，傻在爱上一个不懂得爱自己的人。

是真的，太傻了，

应该放手了，

头也不回。

说再见，不见！

是谁伤了谁，并不知道。

当你回头，其实我还在那儿。

只要你一句，我会回来。

但，时间到，

你还是不要，那是时候对自己说

真是笨蛋！外面还有好多的人等你。

我累了！

谢谢你一直以来的照顾

every hello we have a 'hell' inside but never be sad because every goodbye we have a 'good' in it! :) Just say goodbye to the person and wait for the right one.

Kahyee, be tough

习惯

2011-09-01T08:25:00.000-07:00

习惯，令人无法控制。

习惯了你的存在，
习惯了和你相处，
习惯了有你在身旁，
习惯了，什么都与你分享，
我放不下。

想你了，
在哪远方的你，有知道吗？
想你了，
知道自己已经没有地位，
但，
还是想你了。

如果能回到过去，
我不会乱发脾气，
我会撑着，我会爱，
我真的要学会爱。

你可以回来吗？
可以再爱吗？
可以回到去年的那一天吗？

我放不下，
时间冲淡不了一切，
反而变本加厉.

对自己的承诺，
九月后，请放下，找回以前的自己

我真的想你了

noidea

2011-09-01T08:20:00.000-07:00

It's a sem break,
for others, they look forward for sem break
but for me,
I just dislike it much.

I don't like, cause he goes away from me
I don't like, once he at hometown, he ignore me

I know, he could never bother me,
I know, I am no one or him,
I know, I still loving him like what I used to.
I know, I shall give up
Just I couldn't.

I used to have him be with me everyday,
I used to share every single story with him everyday,
I used to talk and manja him,
I used to ...

I have no idea what am I writting just
I miss you, boy! :D

clear.

2011-08-13T02:30:00.000-07:00

make it clear.

is what that hurt me most.

Dont want to be emo,
just wanna to show that,
without you, I live better.
Still, I want you back. :(

Besides, I needa prove that, I could get better result.
Oh shall start stardee now
and let's pray for me, and wish me luck in the final! :)

they say,
emo never help ya'
luck never come,
so cheers. :)

tho i am still emo bout him.
shucks

bring back

2011-07-30T10:19:00.000-07:00

scroll down facebook,

what i saw?

many couples' pictures.

make me think of the days we spent together.

I do miss the moment, miss the memories,

miss being with you.

Not to lie, right, Imma still lovin' you.

I know I should stop myself fallin' any deeper,

no one know how hard & hurt to forget someone
that you truly give out all heart to.

Is it worth waiting for the no no answer?
Is it worth spending so much on someone who never love ya,
Is it worth spending your time for someone ?
I dont know.
I was thinking too much this week,
tears kept falling down,
perhaps, I know he may leave me real soon,
in 3 weeks time?
I should treasure everyday while he is still with me.
I should be nice and kind toward

I have fall too deep,
till I couldn't find myself back.
I know this is very stupid,
but who could pull me up and bright my future?

I wonder,
am I that worse,
worst until he never want to turn his head back
but keep want to make our relationship clear,
as clear as the white paper.

How hurt he had hurt me,
uncountable.
How much he had hurt me and throw harsh words,
too much.
but why am I still loving this kind of boys.

because i know he is the only one,
and I cant help myself.

I. Can. Die.
cant stop loving this guy. :'(

too much

2011-07-24T03:26:00.000-07:00

too much for me, myself.

I dont think I could handle more.

I should stop falling for him.

I shall care less.
I shall stay tough for myself.

Because of him, I lost everything,
I mean everything.
Friendship, I have no one,
but look back to him,
he got everyone stand there for him.

I not important to him, I know.
He never care for me, I know.
I should forget bout him, I know.

I know all these shits, but I just couldn't do it.

Promise, wake me up, when september end.
Once, september end, I could totally forget bout you,
and got myself a brand new life.
Life is always hard.

I NOT HAPPY AT ALL.
I have tired in smirking to everyone,
I want a laughter kahyee back, like seriously

Just a dream

2011-07-13T02:14:00.000-07:00

Simply thing.
Choose the man that really treat you well, baby girl.

Nothing much, I ditch the blog too long and I think,
no one is still care bout it so I could just speak out my mind here.

I can't let it go, I am so selfish.
I know I could do it if I want, I cant face it.

I don't like myself but I know the best thing,
is only you could get yourself back to you.

nuff said, bye.
Will have a proper post soon.

Love

2011-03-19T10:59:00.000-07:00

Helloh, mood come to blog.
I such a suck blogger, I know, I know.
I am lazy and this is what couldn't change on me. :D
Owh yea, *squeezin my mind
Did I mention my boyf in a nice post before?NO!
So now since mood come,I would have to blog about him,
Let's see.

*Don't you think he is cute?

Oh ya, this boy,
everyone have a good opinion and good impression on him.
He is being too good to everyone as in he will never say NO to others.
He doesn't know how to reject people while people ask for sth.
Oh, that's sometimes why I piss bout him.

I am not a good girlf,
I show him the bad temper, nor worst I could have,
I throw all my temper on him,
I get piss for nothing,
I scold him for idk why for sometimes,
but still, he always endure me.
I am sorry for all these, but I will never change. :D

I never meet a boy that better than him,
I never believe that,
in this century still have this kind of boy,
I think just left him only.
*oops, ya right and his brother. :D

Although he not handsome
but at least he is good looking for someone.
Although he is not tall
but at least he is taller than me.
Although he is not rich
but at least I believe he will be a successful person
Although he can't gimme what I want
but at least I know that he loves me
Although he always make me cry
but at least this prove that I love him.

Sometimes we did argue for small matter,
I admit, everytime was my fault.
Just because that you don't know what am I thinking
& I don't want to tell.
Sometimes we did hurt each other badly,
Just because we misunderstand each other
& both of us just can't endure.
Everytime we argue and get back,
I love you more.
Everytime that we hurt each other,
I know I can't just give up like this.

Perhaps, I am the worst girl you ever meet,
but you're the best boy I ever meet.

Okay, there are still many,
& right, your girlf best friend come find her,
which call lazy.
so whatever it is,
you know you love me. :D

Slut

2011-03-17T09:38:00.000-07:00

Helloh,

-Never be good and nice to someone when they are offence you at first and they never appreciate what you've done to them-

Just because no one tell them what you've done for them.
They take all the compliments by themselves but not me.
They could pretend everything is alright.
I am not the one who worth a single thing, I know but please, what I've done, I want to let people know.
Stop all the fake ness from you guys.
You could never talk to me, but hey,
I am here to give you a blast that,
I WISH YOU
break up with your girlf so soon.

xs'os'
hearts.

Who's the angel, who's devil,
let's have a look,
you know who you are.

Difference

2011-03-15T02:50:00.000-07:00

There are some differences between us.
Like a gap inside my heart, it's like,
no matter how hard I tried to get over the gap,

still there are something wrong.
Right, I couldn't pretend everything is right.
I couldn't ignore the feeling deep down inside my heart,
there are something went wrong now.
I wanna solve it but how.

It's been very long,
I get crazy, insane and laugh like no body business,
I changed. I know.
But everyone have a change,
I don't know how to communicate to others anymore.
My feeling suck.
I wanted to talk badly,
I wanted to cry out loud for now,
and I don't know why.

I am getting wrong,
it's like no one will stand by me and said,
Hey, Kahyee, have faith on me,
No matter what happen,
I will be there for you once you need me.
Just ring my phone up.
Where are these friends gone?

I am not the happy go lucky girl anymore,
I changed. I hate myself now for being like this.
Sometimes, I hope to find somewhere to go,
somewhere quiet, some where nobody know me,
then I think I could find myself again.

Brace up and move on,
I know just myself could help,
no others.
Big wide grin,
tomorrow is a better day.

Money

2011-02-24T07:42:00.000-08:00

Out of the thought,
I need money.

As everyone know,
money is important if not you can't survive.
Why why there are some rich ppl outta there but not me?

Why they could have a life that everyone would jealous?
and why that isn't me?

I run out of money,
I can't buy anything I like,
I can't go anywhere I want to,
I can't buy pretty dress and clothes,
I have been given pressure from the parents.

& ya, I don;t really waste money,
& ya, I don't really know where I spent all the money,
& why on earth there's so unfair?

I was just a 18 years old girl,
an ordinary girl,
others are enjoying their life everyday
& why should I sit here and think bout money?
It's unfair right?

Am gonna crazy,
am really tired that acting myself happy,
am gonna break myself real hard,
I couldn't stand anymore.

Who doesn't want to be the shinning one in ppl's impression?
I lost my mind,
am tired in chasing this kind of life,
I feel like crying,
feel like breaking down,
feel like don't wanna stand up anymore.

am exhaust.
Come this college cause I wanna escape those life in CHS.
It's been real hard at there,
It's been keep chasing my life with money.

I don't wanna be materialistic,
I wanna be the ordinary girl beside your door,
I just wanna get myself outta here,
stop myself in chasing this kind of life.

Stop the way thinking bout the money thing.
I just wanna be ordinary,
but why things so hard?
Why so unfair?
Why I could never get what I want for...

Am sick of this kind of life.

bored

2011-02-15T20:50:00.001-08:00

Though is gonna over,
but I still in the CNY mood.
I wanna get out from the boredom,
I wanna hang out and get myself step back to my hang out and normal life.

I saw something on facebook,
well it does make me jealous.
Who don't need a boyf like that?
Oh my, how I wish I could have a boyf like that.
Blame myself.

Oh yea, stop insulting my classmates with those speaking tone
& stop reject me for the outing.
DO YOU KNOW YOU CHANGE LOTS?
I hate this.
No offense, I have a boring-till-die boyf.
With no fun, no joy, no jokes.
Why the hell you stop all the outings when just the second day of a new sem?

Or you change once your brotha here?
I don't know you.
I hate this feeling.
I hate this.

Miss

2011-01-14T07:48:00.000-08:00

Before the clock strike 12,
Happy birthday to Maymay.

As in the celebration of her,
make me miss my birthday so damn much.
Think back,
I was like the luckiest girl in the world.
I have so much people there for me at my day.
well, it makes me feel like
I need a proper post for the day.
The day and the only belong to me.

Before the day,
I was sad, worried,
there have no one there celebrate with me.
I am just need to be somebody from nobody on that day.

They did surprise me.
I love all of them,
I really do.
I glad I have all of them,
glad that no one fail me!

College mates all lovely,
I did appreciate all of 'em.
ALL!

& My serdang gang!
Hello guys,
I really really sorry!

I screw up that night.
I shouldn't be so stubborn,
I am so sorry.
I know you all love me!
I do love you all too.

Sincerely,
I LOVE YOU GUYS.

Sometimes things did change. I dont know what have happen between us, I need some understanding from you. Just that simple. Why why everytime you know how to fail me? I feel like crying, my tears gonna drop. I need some times to heal myself. Why? why never understand me?

Sometimes I wish you could understand me more,
even 1%,
will make it a very big difference.

I suck,
suck in being a human,

being a failure never taste good.

Hesitation

2011-01-09T00:20:00.000-08:00

N.E.L.L.O.H

It's Nelloh, Not Hello!

GOT IT?

I know,
it sound so stupid.
O.O

I have something to talk

Find no one,

so I am here! :)

The only place who will not fail me in spilting out all problems.

My problem is

I have no more temptation to hold it tight.

I don't want lost everyone.

It's difficult to hold something that
you know that might not be yours ever.

The attitude have change.
The thinking have change.
Even,
the heart have a change.

Pulling back makes us fight like kilkenny cats.

Was thinking should this chapter end,

B.U.T

I don't want,

I can't face it.

&

I can't lie to myself.

A.N.Y.M.O.R.E

I don't know what I've to do.

Feel strange.

I need someone who really cares for me.

Obviously, I miss those old days

Sar.Cas.Tic

2011-01-07T10:33:00.000-08:00

HELLO,

HEY,

ANIYEOH,

Due to the final of this sem,

I feel like dying.

I have no mood to study,
I don't feel like study,
I even ask myself why I need to study.

Stupid enough,
I know.
*cough
I am still SMART!

I have finish my Eng and Build Cons 2 paper,
I was like,
Woah, finally!
I mean, the paper is not as hard as I expect,
still,
I don't have 100% confidence that I could pass!

I just hope, I will not fail this 2 subjects.
I really study with my heart, okay?
(Y)

I hate exam!
When every time the final hits on me,
I wonder,
am I choosing the wrong course?
AGAIN!
I know I dumb enough.

Boiphrennnnnn.

Thanks the boiphren keep study with me,
going different places to study. (:
ILY. INY.

xxx.

Oh,

know what?

there are some people outta there bitching bout ya'
what to do?

Let 'em be!

Cause you know,
you guys are come from different places and different level.
SO,
don't get in the same level with them.
As in,
the low level they are used to be. (:

Nuff said.

Lesson learn, Never argue with those non-educated person.

Besides,
the good advice,
before you scold someone,

please, check your attitude and improve your english as well.

Xs' Os'

Kahyee loves.

starting

2011-01-01T22:23:00.000-08:00

OMG! My final is 4 days after, am still here blogging!
NAISSS!
I don't want to screw up anymore.
Panic in study! C'on!
STUDY STUDY STUDY!
wheeee'
Who, gimme the temptation to study please?
*mwahsss

Okay, I know I've been diching my blog for month time.
Oops, am just a lazy blogger.
B.U.T
you can't blame me,
I can't even get my ass to online,
hostel line suck lots.

Well, 26.11.2010 was a memorable day for me.
Thanks all my college mates,
I love you all much, seriously.
Worth me to love you all so much.
& not forget the serdang gang too
though I screw up that night,
still, thanks for everything.

The boys of my class. :)
The girl of my class (:

Christmas eve,
enjoy myself at sunway.
thanks to the boyf.
Nothing much happen, just celebrate.

The boyf & I at Cameron Highland. :)
*points up
my dulan-ed face

Nothing for me to blog.
Am sick of my life now.
I should have a change.
Oh, be independence. (:

& yeap, am planning to sell some clothes through online.
Hope it will be success this time with Kyen. (:
I miss her tho.
Tonight will be the night both of us staying in the same room,
fooling around again.
I love her.

Last but not least,
As everyone said the same words,
Happy to the New Year.
2011.

lost

2010-11-18T21:16:00.000-08:00

Time flies, too fast. I have no time to turn around and looked back nor search back what I have done in this year. Still remember last year's today I am still sitting inside CHS Block B's classroom having SPM, the Malay paper. & Now, I am sitting inside Old Town rushing my assignment alone. How lonely is it.

Still remember I used to play like an asshole, fool people around me, craps with the buddies, have heart-talk with the bff, laugh like nobody business, do whatever I wanted to and now all gone. I couldn't find my smile nor laugh till I met back my those friends like CXin them but seems like all of 'em have changed, I feel strange from 'em.

Sometimes, I really feel like crying but reality hits hard, it doesn't allow you to cry, even sniff. Tears drop on the face in the corner of my room, nobody cares nobody know. I am just a lil' girl who needs concern from everyone, whom need cares by everyone. I love all my friends but they don't love me back so what to do?

I thought college life will be better than the high school but I'm totally wrong. You can't cry, you can't rest, stresses are coming non stop from everywhere. I not dare to trust people cause I think people are all lying. I am getting tougher and tougher cause I don't want others to hurt me. I try to get myself better but sometimes there are still someone try to hurt you and break you down. People in college are all come with a mask and never reveal their true self.

Someone said boyf will be the medicine of all your problems. NO! HELL NO! It just will give you more stress as in when he doesn't trust you and when he keep saying wanna break up with you and it makes you don't know how to do. It makes you doubt that does he really love you or just used to be with you. I don't know, I just follow the footstep of my friends and the boyf's routine and now I just realize I have lost my mind and I lost myself.

I always think will this earth have a better place for me to take a deep breath and rest with no worries, no stresses, no argues? I am sick and tired enough of my life lately. Everything go wrong and it seems like never go right. Can someone tell me what to do with a 18 years old girl? What's wrong with me, I wonder.

I feel shame of myself for some reasons. I hope to treat my mum better. I noticed this week I never argue with her. Sometimes I do miss her, I feel like talk to her nicely and craps with her like what I used to do with my friends but every time chat till half ways for sure we will end up with argue. LOL! She is just can't get what I want to say, maybe she too worried bout me. (: I miss her now, Mum, I am stress now, I feel like staying at home and rest. (:

Tomorrow test. All the best for me.
Needa stop cause tears drop.
Bye. Every single tomorrow will get better.
Ky, stop the tears and move on. Brace up!

loose

2010-10-21T23:34:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel like out of place when someone leave you all alone? Well there is the time that we, people do feel like giving up everything when we are tire in something. And what we need is just there's someone outta there give you hope all over again and pull you up, give you concern.

xxx.
Life is harsh lately. Homeworks, classes and assignments are killing the students. Well, as I am not the hardworking student and am always do things in last minutes, and hat I get myself into is trouble. Oh what a trouble maker.

xxx.

Here is the short updates. I am just lazy to blog bout everything had happen in my life cause no one concern and y life is just bored enough compare to others.

Besides, to someone out here, Please don't ever backstab me. Well, when you are talking sth bad about me, look at the mirror first who the hell are you talking to. Slut, you better keep your mouth shut in front of me ever, you know, you are talking yourself when you are saying me, oh bitchy skill, i am way pro than you. spot it, you will get hurt once you hurt me again.

Fyi, I can be a best friend but a bad enemy don't get me mad, I am not friendly at all. Look at your face, you know what? Oh, you look like village girl, oh so sad to be know, that's a fact that you are come from village. Too bad for you, you can't get used to be a city people like us, so shut the fuck up.

You can get a life from now, well, as in you have no right to speak in front of me anymore. I just hate you like I hate some insect, oh, poor thing, perhaps insects are too good for you? haha. :D Tell you slut, the way you act and talk just like prostitude. Fuck your life up and don't mess my life! Spend your time to improve your suckish Eng please. Duh duh duh, you know what you have done to me and you know who you are. Don't know anything please don't ever judge. I never snacth him from you but oh oh, he is not yours. HAHA! you know what? inner always have the tight to speak everything.

lies

2010-10-08T07:14:00.000-07:00

Days by days, things changed, people changed. Times never stop for you because something that had happen, what we need to do is solve the problems out. Never waste time, time do flies so fast,do things that you never regret. That's the way I live my life.

Well, in this little world, someone might don't like the way you speak or your attitude but if you care what others criticize you that much then I advice you, you better don't live. Live your life with yourself, with the attitude you want to.

Happiness fulfil ever parts of my life. Right, that's no smirk, no mask. I just feel happy these days. Though sometimes things will force you to the wrong path but you can make it right yourself, don't? Sometimes someone will force you to another chapter in your life.

Seriously, the someone has bring me to another chapter in my life. Thanks. It's like I never talk about this someone in facebook nor blog but hey, that doesn't mean I never care bout you. I am really glad that you came into my life and bring me out from the old chapter of my story. :)

xxx.
Sem 2 was started like 2 weeks. Results were out and yea, no doubt, suck. I was regret but I know regret never change the result to be a better or what. I know cry can't change the result so I grin when I saw the result. Okay, I am doing bad, consider worst at the last sem so I think of study hard in this friggin' sem.

Okay, time table is killing but we enjoy. I miss the craps with Diow and Nick Khee them. I think I change, not that talkative but that's great, ain't?

I fell down at somewhere in my college and it's holymamateribble. Whatever it is, I am being a tough cute girl, I never waste my tear, never burst my tears out.

I think no one is care bout my lifestyle so till then. Loves'
It's a mess update cause I lose my blogging mojo, still, loves'

xs' os' have a great day, babeh(S)
I love my cute boyf.
Happy 2 months anni.

If white lies could make people happy,
so why don't we tell?
Oh, I wanna tell you,
I love you.

get me?

Potent

2010-09-18T00:40:00.000-07:00

I feel blue, I really do. I don't even know what am I thinking right now. I am just being over potent, I think. I don't know why the hell that I screamed and shouted over my mum just now, I am regret in doing that.

I am so not in the mood today. Something ruined me and I don't know what it is. I think I have been keeping myself, I have been protect myself too over until no one can know me well. Everything happen, I not dare to speak it out, I keep everything inside my heart, cry alone inside my blanket. I just scare, scare everything out of my mind, scare everything come out wrong.

I don't like being a crying baby but I just can't stand it right now. I need somebody there for me, I need someone who really knows me well. I am being more and more potent nowadays yet truculent.

I scare of being alone, I really do. I thought I have many friends but why right now, I feel lonely. I don't have any idea what am I doing right now. I don't know how to speak in the right way. I don't know how to do to make things right. I always get myself or people around me into trouble. I don't like this feel, seriously, I don't.

Everyone see me with a smiley face but who will look deep inside my heart. My smile, my laugh, my jokes everything were a lie. I wore a mask everyday and now I am tired. I really tired. I sick of myself being so fake. I don't know who I can speak with. I feel insecure.

I am just so not myself today. I am tired. I really tired. I feel like stop to do everything that I am doing and go to a place where no one know me. I can start my life all over again. I don't want to care others anymore. I am just stressing myself too much recently for some sakes.

I thought my boyf will know me but I guess I am wrong. He doesn't know me, not even 10%. He doesn't know what I actually want.I have no right to speak, just I wish he would understand me, hope the day will come. I thought he cares bout me but he doesn't. I think we need to cool down for a while. I am tired, I am sorry for being selfish.

I love myself only. I am so selfish. Nuff said.
That's me, the always kahyee.
I cried, tears burst out because I am exhausted.
I sick of my life! God, give me a new life!
Sorry, mum! I shouldn't shouted at you! I am real sorry for what I have did.
I am being shock of myself also. I am really really sorry.
Too much things that interrupt me, SORRY! :'(
I know I have no right to speak anymore.
BYE! I need to cool down right now.

priority

2010-09-14T21:22:00.000-07:00

Promises meant to be broken and boys love to promise and love to break it as well and I don't know why I know this but still, I let the promise broke me down. Sometimes, people are funny. They know what will hurt them most but they still go and touch or hold it well and let themselves hurt again.
I wonder does "I love you" just a phrase without meaning or it means something. Don't you think it is so funny? When people tell you I love you and you will feel empty but still, you will reply I love you too as a respect. I don't know much in love, but what I know is, don't tell me you love me unless you really mean it, cause I will so something crazy like believe it. (:
I don't know what the hell is forever. I just know forever is never exist in my world. Love is forever? But hey, forever is over! Don't ever tell me forever, this is just bullshit. I am not those 3 years old lil' girl, I have grown up, I have my thought. I am not those lil' kiddo princess that still waiting their prince whom come over her castle the white horse.
Don't ask me what kind or which type I want my boyf should be! I will not answer you cause you don't even know what we call it as love. Love is just a feeling that show you care and make you feel warm. If those who wants her boyf or his girlf with pretty face, slim or whatsoever, this type of people is just love themselves but not their partner.
Someone said this before, I look for quality but not look for quantity. That's so meaningful. As I said, I don't need someone to stay in my life, cause I know you need to love yourself more than anyone so no one can hurt you. I know this very well. This world is just unfair. You need to protect yourself by your own and you can't really 100% believe what others said.

I am just an ordinary girl who will get hurt and learn to wake up. I will break down and learn to stand up. I will break people's heart yet I will love. I will do whatever I like and I don't even care what others think bout me. I live with my own, I want my life to get better, I am selfish and I am just out of control. I no need a boyf or whatever. I need myself only.

I learn how to hurt people as well. I am a lil' bit insecure, I want to be a king instead of being a queen.I am impatience, I love to make mistakes instead of make it correct, I hard to be handle. I try to be an extraordinary one but I just fail to do it so I am just some ordianry girl.

Love me or hate me.
I don't care. I am just do what I want to do.
That's enough said.
I love my boyf, JK, Ong! (: Quarrels make all couples get better, ain't? I love you, enough said.

heart.

2010-09-09T07:19:00.000-07:00

I used to blog everyday but now I just being lazy to blog about everything happen in my life. last time, I am a blogger fans but now, not anymore. I used to blog some emo posts and everytime I blog, I will screw up my own mood. Funneh!

Being stress free now though every of my friends said that I have no stress at all but who knows the real colour of me? Well, in front of others I am always the happy go lucky one, but who knows what I am thinking deep down inside my heart?

I hide myself to everyone. Even my family and my bestfriends. I don't know from when onward, I just trust myself. Everything happen, I kept it inside my heart and told everyone nothing happen. & I feel down myself but yea, I smirk to everyone. I always gave everyone a smirk, I always wear a mask to face everyone.

Great job, ky! You never face the truth of yourself. You never try to open your heart to face people. You know who you love but you treat the one you love so bad, great job ky. I don't need anyone in my life. I don;t need anyone to care. I am just the ky who stay inside her heart with herself.

Why people need love? cause they lack of love. Why don;t I need love? Cause I love myself enough. I don't need the love from others. There is always a circle which protect me outside my this lil' girl's world! I tried so hard to make myself become extraordinary but at the end, I am still the ordinary girl who will get bored and feel ignored.

Till then, bro needs to use computer.
I've lots to say.
I love my boyf, JK! (:
get my words.

loves'

2010-08-28T21:51:00.000-07:00

Just notice that I have ditch this page for almost a month. (: There are no times for me to blog so you know I know. =)

For you guys information, in this blog I don't update a post bout birthday anymore but you guys are someone special so this for you. (:

Some birthday shout outs :
10/8 Loong Kah Yen & Clement Chew.Y.C
11/8 Shawn
13/8 Set Lee
16/8 Hui Lin
20/8 Foo Chok
29/8 Chor Han

I hope all of you have a blast on your big big day. (:

Someone, I do hope you have a great birthday with the one you love, your girlf. Until now, I still miss you, miss the memories we are having. I wonder when you are going to call me and craps after so long you have ditch me. LOL! Well, I hope you will get the best result in your SPM! Loves'

Chok, I miss your craziness. ISH! I will be missing you badly when you go. Two days left and you are going to Sweden. When will you be back? (: I miss you. HAHA! All the best in Sweden. (: Loves'

That's all. Leehom post will be up so soon?

Love me. xs' os'

Hey

2010-08-01T02:01:00.000-07:00

*wavin' both hands*
HELLO!
AUGUST!
& oh,
Bye JULY!

Yea, there's this month I wait for a year! I think this will be the happiest month for me. No why, just Leehom! :)

Leehom's new movie, Leehom's new album all release on this freaking pretty lovely month! (: Wheeeee' Don't you guys just LOVE August? (: Yea, you did.

It's glad to shout that, oh, my dear Leehom is coming on 22 of August! (: HAHA :D If I am not wrong. God! If you are going, tell me just hope that my exam is not around there. (: Come on! :D

I wanna meet Leehom! I wanna meet Leehom! I wanna meet Leehom! :D

xxx.

August, many people birthday. (: It's like you're the one also.
But hey, blog bout that nxt post! (:

xxx.

I don't care!
No Matter What,
I want my Leehom!
Can you hear me? (:
Love you
xs' os'

Loves

2010-07-21T03:07:00.000-07:00

HELLO BELLO NELLO
*wink wink
SAY Cheeeessseeee! :D

Yours truly (:

Why don't I enjoy my college life? HAHA :D There are no sense that I don't love it right? (:

I tell you, college life is hell fun! :D I love my college life. Our events like non-stop. Wheeee' Sem test haven't over, we are planning to go everywhere already. Well, words are not enough saying that how much I love this class & the classmates. Well, all of them are lovely. (: Though they love to tease me around, love to fool around with me yet what a class need? JOYFUL ! I don't care what you all tease just I love all of you deep down my heart.

Hold this relationship tight,
don't break it down. (:

Here have some lovely classmates.

Hui Lin, the pretty. She's the first that I knew in my class due to the fate we met in mass call and yea I remember she sat beside me & I talked with her, then she thought I was a banana. LOL

Then here comes the xiao zha bo, Xin Hui! You have no idea how xiao she is if you don't know her. HAHA :D I confirm she will beat me after she see this. Well, she's also Saggitarus babeh which is same like me. & She is so LOUD & love to scold people -____- What come first on her mind? PLAY! (:

Next, the BIT BIT Pei Leng. Neh Neh, this 8 po! She's cute. I am serious, she is so cute! :) *wink wink. Well, I love her with the attitude she is having. She will not be panic when she's having some problem. She is loud too. I always come her house to overnight. HAHA :D Funneh! :D

Then Xin Yi. I tell you, this girl looks so quiet but when she talks, sure teasing people. She will not talk if yhou don't know her but once you know her, she will tease you badly. (:

Wheeee' Jia Jing in the house. :D This lil' boy you look at him, he is like the same age with us but NO! He is way older than us one year! One frigging year! :D He is so nice, so kind. He looks like nice to bully right but not. He always bully people yet he is the most clever in my class. SMART!

The Alexander Goh Kok Wei! :D Well, I remember the first time I met him, I was like "WEIH WHY ARE YOU CALLING ALEXANDER? THAT"S LEEHOM NAME!" LOL :D I know I am so over but seriously that's Leehom name. haha :D Yea, he become our driver since we all know him. The nice one! :D

Then here comes the PRETTIEST GIRL inside our class. Diow Rhu Yeh. Wheeeeee' Know what? he is very pretty. The frst time I meet him, I was thinking, WALAO, Why he looks like TARZAN? Cause his hair is so many and long well, I think he is someone who very cool. make me not dare to talk with him & his name is special lah! He is good with me inside the class & yea he is very very very retard! :D HAHAHA :D

Other PRETTY here,the sleeping beauty, Goh Chin Yiao who named as Ah Yiao! :D He sleep inside class 24/7. Tell you, I always remember the first sentence I talk with him was Weih, You're so Pretty & he was speechless with his killing smile. Then from that day onward I keep disturb him & make him talk to me until now, he is good with me until he can tease me everyday and text me with those teasing word. -____- He always use the Hokkien to talk with me at first and I understand nothing. =( But now, my hokkien improve. Thanks to this fella.

Mian ah Mian! You will wonder why I call him as Mian. haha :D Tell you now, I named him as mian cause he nt enough MAN! Wheeee' cold joke. He is kind hearted & he always appreciate everyone who helps you. I tell you, he might be the kindnest in my class. (:

Nick Khee, The Gay Ass! Don't misunderstand. I named him as GAY ASS not that he is gay but hey yoh, he is act gay only cause he has a pretty girlf whom he loves much! :D wheeeee;

Vincent here. HAHA :D He is fun enough. He tease me like hell yea he is the one who lead everyone to tease me (: LOL :D

& more & more. If I miss someone here, I am sorreh. (: I love you guys. I love those who always join our outing. Genting & One U & many more.
xxx.

I love the old friends too. But need to admit that, coll friends are best enough. They are awesome. (: I love my class & love everyone that turn my life upside down. Yea, roller coaster.

Ciao. BAIS (:
Tomorrow will be a better day.
Much lovesssss'

Memories

2010-07-17T23:37:00.001-07:00

Out of the blue, I miss the old times.

Clement Chew.Y.C

Not to lie, I miss you so badly. You did gave me so much memories in high school. Seriously, if the time could turn back, I will choose you all over agian. As I said before, you're ain't a good boyf but a bestf ever. I miss you so badly.

Think back to the past, though you din give me much good memories but you're the only worth me to do so much things for you. I miss the way we communicate and those conflicts. I know I am being dumb enough to believe that you love me while I know that you're not at all. Well, all of this was a past & you broke our promise. You said we will be bff forever but now, where are you when I need you? Where's the old you? Where are you when I need to talk with someone? Where are you when I need to share my story with?

Chok. (:

The Dai B! The bestf. LOL :D Foo Sze Chuen, it's sad to heard that you're going back to Sweden so soon. :( Seriously, you never look like a dai gor! HAHAH :D I will be missing your craps, your voise, your foolishness, your everything when you go back to your Sweden!

Missing the old days when we hang out and fool together, teasing someone, gossip someone. Seriously, you're a good boy and you are the bestf! Still remember you said that, friends are the most imporatant thing in your life. (: Know what? I think I will miss you badly. (:

Chor Han, Ng

I miss you! I do! But I know you don't miss me! I love to hear your stupid mother nagging toward me! HAHA! :D It's good to have craps, talks with you though sometimes we will argue when we craps and this is the thing that still hold us together in our friendship, ain't? (:

You know you love me, but I knwo that you will love your boyf more! Oh, play girl, tell me you have how many boyfs before! HAHA! but I am happy to hear that your new boyf is the best among the others. (: I love you, take my words.

Crystal C

I miss your craps! HAHA! & obviously, I miss your laugh. You laugh like nobody there, you talk like nobody buisness, you craps all the way you want. I miss the day you teasing everyone, miss the day with you around. & ya, when the time you emo always make me scare. (:

Miss the old days in high school we skip class together, we sneak to canteen and eat. Sneak to everywhere just to skip class. Ignore the chinese teacher and more. Yea, I know that your coll life ain't bad, it's so good that can hear from you.

Well, that's more to come and I am kinda lazy now. & yea, haha :D It's time for em to get my ass to my Building Material assignment if not I am going to be so dead. :( Holymama! :(

P.s/ I am going to edit this post somedays. Be Right Back.
Love all of you in my life

Rude

2010-07-10T01:21:00.000-07:00

I used to blog everyday but now not anymore. Not I don't want it's just the time don't let me to. Stop crapping.

Celebrated belated Daddys' Day ;ast Saturday & went to Time Square with J.Chyang last Friday night. Then Saturday morning went to Time Square again for formal shirt with the brunch :)

L>R : Kyee, Diow & Xhui

L>R : Xhui,KLiang,Mian & Diow! (:
Babeh! (:

Driver of the day! :) Mian!

Pui Lengggg ; Xin Hui!!!! :)

Girlssss'

The cousieee;

Girlsss with loves' grandsire

& now the boys turn. (:

& yea, here come the whole freakin awesome one. (:

Still everything start with the college thingy. TT Nite of my school had just past one week before & ya, it's so dissapointed that the team I support never get the first but who cares? They did the best job, I think.

Mike . (: Kinda love >The Loong KahYen. (:

I love> Girls. <3>L > R : Joey ; Wenhui ; Eva ; Kyen ; Kyee

The team. (: Shawnnn ! :)

Wenhui , Gan

Edwin & Kyen

Eva & Shawn (:

Tommyyyy. (:

& here come the shawwnnn! :)

Well well well, I tell you I am happy with my coll life sometimes. As you all know, I never regret to study in my college though I will still think of going to Taylor nor Inti to study for a while.

Flashback, to past two weeks, I can't really remember what have happen. I had two tests, & I think the two tests were okay, not bad. Then presentation going good, teacher said that I am good. (: *wink wink Assignments are killing me all the time but I always hand in on time. *proud

Tuesday went to Genting with my classmates, well had fun though have some conflicts before this. I hope everyoine have fun there. (: Then Wednesday, went to Pei Ling's house to watch football at BRJ! 2.30am, the mamak like 8pm only, everyone flood the mamak store. HAHA :D Well, my Germany lost. :(

Then Thursday night, went out yam cha at GK's old town with Ah Yiao till 2am. Before that went dinner with Jiun Kai and so on. Okay, I don't know how to blog lah! Suck with it.

xxx.

I view Crystal and ChuXin's blog just now. & they made me miss CHS so much! As I said, CHS is the best school I have ever met in my life. Not to lie, CHS taught me many, include social, lifestyle and many. CHS bring me many memories & gimme many things that others school can not get it.

It's like, the social skill of CHS, as what Chu Xin'd said is so truth! CHS's poeple are always being mature than others, I don't know why but it's so good, isn't it?

No doubt, CHS's social skill is show the true of yourself without wearing mask. Like what I used to be a rude girl, live like a wild girl, talk like a ruder, behave like a mad person and never care what people comment on me. YEA! But now, in college, this kind of lifestyle never come out anymore.

I wonder why boy need to spike their hair? I wonder why they can wear mask to face people? SIGH. That's so not CHS style. You know, we can be bitcher than everyone if they offended us last time but now not anymore. I love US or UK lifestyle, they never care what their attire like, they can no make up but why my school is go for Taiwan lifestyle? Why my school flood of LALA? Why my school's people never open minded? :( SO SAD.

I should stop typing, if not I will miss CHS more and more.

I LOVE Catholic High School!!!!

Never regret that mummy sent me in!

Hectic

2010-06-20T01:57:00.000-07:00

I know, I know I've ditch this blog for many days. I am lazy, I admit. & I think I don't wanna make this blog to become an emo one so yeah I promise myself not to update any emo poste. (:

College life is awesome without assignments nor homeworks and tests? HAHA :D I am dreaming, yea, dreaming! I know that this couldn't happen in my life but hell yeah, I am so desperate to wait the day come. (:

Squeezing my brain to think what've happen recently. Yeah, fyi, I am not a very optimistic baby. *shake head I need to be more optimistic, hell yeah! I went out with my coursemates someday & yeah, 22 people of us went to have PRINCE OF PERCIA.

Building lab is fun but report make my day down. Drama is fun but hell you know, something will dissapointed you & ya, I screw up the drama, Imma not happy about it! FML! Coursemates are lovely but some of 'em are wearing masks. Boys are suck yeah, everyone knows.

Dennis came and fetch me Friday night. (: We plan to watch movie but yeah I forget the way to wangsa walk so end up ew went GK for eat & met ah yiao up! hahaha :D God knows why got hahaha there. (:

I've a hair cut today morning, well, it's dissapointed me cause it turned sth that I don't like & I think it doesn't suit me? Whatsoever. I don't really care it because hair will grow everyday. (: & ya, I promise myself I am gonna dress up to college this week, yea. I've take my word. Tomorrow I will have no spec and never tie up my hair. (: Love me more. (:

For the god sake, you ghuys should know why I've change lots. I look happy in front of you but hey, who knows that I am smirking & inside I am dying? Stop this.

Kahyee is being not kahyee anymore. :(
Dead. Leave me speechless. (:

I love my hostel friends. Eva & Joey & Erin. (:

Lastly, Happy birthday EVA! :)

catching

2010-06-06T01:34:00.000-07:00

When there's the time I fall for you,
I must be CRAZY.

I hate blogging sometimes I stun over here for half an hour & my mind is blank. No doubt, I blog now just because I don't wanna this to be a dead page.

This week just past too fast, it's like yesterday was Monday & now is Sunday. Don't you think 24 hours per day is not enough for colleague? HAHA! So please, someone could you gimme 48 hours perday? Ya, you can! Oh Ky, DREAM ON! (:

Craps. I wonder why my class seperate to 2 gangs? OMGee, it's sad okay? I just don't know how to do to make all of them play together & craps together. Well, I feel tired in crapping & fooling in class already, I will be quiet for sometimes from now onward. Well, I still hope my class will be fun.

Why everyone is stress bout assignments and homeworks? I am stressing about my BUILDING CONSTRUCTION! OMGWTF! I don't even know a single thing bout it! God save me! :) I know you will. (:

These days, I don't really join Alex 'em but yea, I joined Diow them. Fyi, I need to find a group to join with whom can fool around with me & wilder than me. I am finding, yea, finding. To be honest, I still find no one. :(

Went out with Mike them that day for a movie, yea, I notice Mike always gimme a CHS feel, GOD! I love to chat & play with him, He can gimme CHS feel. You will not know how much I miss CHS! (:
xxx.

I wonder why all boys love pretties?
& why pretties go and flirt everywhere? HAHA! :D
Reality is cruel & life is so unfair. Take my words. (:

I think I am gonna dress up like a doll to coll from next week onward. God knows why! (:
Sometimes, I wonder, can I find someone to replace you? Ya, I found one in my coll but still not confirm yet, maybe he is wilder or cooler than you? Who knows? Ya, the boy, good looking, not tall, wild & just a bit lala. LOL :D

Guess who's the one. (:
xxx.

Tunning into : - No More you! (:
如果这不是结局如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信你就是唯一如果你听到这里
如果你依然放弃那这就是爱情我难以抗拒
如果这就是爱情本来就不公平你不需要讲理
我可以离去如果我成全了你
如果我能祝福你那不是我看清
是我证明我爱你

Lovely

2010-05-30T06:59:00.000-07:00

There are someone outta here
still keep the faith on people.

I promise that I will blog today. Ya, here come this post. Fyi, I don't know what should I blog so hope that this will not be a messy one.

I get to cope with all my coursemates now, they are just so lovely. I am proud that all of them are so crazy, they gimme a feel like home. hahaha :D I am crapping, obviously.

I went wangsa walk this week, oh and Sri Rampai pasar malam also. (: It's great to hang out with all of 'em. They will simply cheer you up. (:

Well, life never ever going up every single day, they are some down things also but who cares? Why I need to make this post to be a emo one? haha :D

Do I ever mention that, my group, DQS1 Group B has a freaking pretty boy? I mean it. Spot that, I don't mean HANDSOME & ya, I mean PRETTY! He is really pretty, just so you know, he is prettier than a girl, and his face will just turn red in no time when you stare at him! OMGeeee, he is way too cute. & Ya, He has dimples. OMG OMG OMG! Okay, I not into him, dont get me wrong, just I rarely see a boy so pretty!

Today I went out with ChuXin, chillin' at MidValley after months time I never been there. Woah! No doubt, I love Mid Valley the most, I mean among all shoping centre. (: & ChuXin, I love today, I mean it. I love the time we were inside KTM! You light up my day.

I got myself a Nike bag too, It's love! haha :D I love it but I love the Nike laptop bag more. :( I went to Mines with Erin, Ann and hostel friends on Friday and Erin nearly cry because she can't get to see her SHOW LUO! -____-
xxx

Do I ever say that people are selfish? Ya. I tell you, they are! Don't ever be so dumb to trust anyone of them. They not worth it and ya, they will not appreciate it. Everyone have their own lil' secret so don't ever ask people bout their secret!

I hate everyone. Ya, I mean it, that's include my bestf. Not to lie, you all break my heart again and again. How could I trust you?
xxx
I am tired on waiting you to online and reply me everyday. I am serious, I am tired.

xxx

Do I ever tell you guys this?
World Cup is around the corner!

People!

14 days to go for

ENGLAND's first match!!!

ENGLAND

V.S

US

xxx.
Enough crap.
Bye.
Love me more.
ILY, hear me?

Untrustable.

2010-05-22T07:36:00.000-07:00

You're pretty, so what?
I don't deserve this.
=(

Ya, I will say College life is ♥ if there are no assignments at all. (: Well, my coursemates are all funny but some of 'em are so quiet. Fyi, the kahyee, is always the hyper one, she can't keep quiet nor sit in the same place with more than 1 hour. Yea, this is so kahyee. (:

They might have someone who hates the hyper Kahyee but like I care? I will rock my life as well, yea, & please, the members in my group, be hyper a bit. (: No doubt, I want to rock my coll life so badly, yea you know what I mean, get me riight please. (:
So DQS1 Group B members, rock you guys life also. (: ♥

Woah, hostel life is awesome, well, sometimes is bored but oh my gee, I know many of my new friends there okay? All of 'em are ♥ . Some of 'em are pretty cute, like Shawn Shawn & Tommy, Mike & so on.... (:

from left to right >
Tommy, Ann, Shawn, your truly. (:

xxx.

Emotional unstable. I have no right to wait for your text. I have no idea why I need to be mad when you keep talking non-stop about her. I have no right to like you. I have no gut to tell you what I feel. & yea, I am suck because I have no gut to tell you everything in my heart.

I keep lying to myself & say everything will come to an end once you love the girl. Sigh. I am suck, a bugger. what to do? I have lock myself up, I have been hurt enough, I couldn't let myself break down again. Never ever.

I will tell you the reason here why I keep call you to chase her,
Yea, you will see it, perhaps?
Because, I am dumb enough to think that once I can make you chase her, once you love her, then I will not love you so much, will not put so much feeling inside. Ya, I scare of being hurt. Ya, I am a coward. :( Ya, this is the reason. I call you to chase her because I love you. I am retard, I know. (:

Well, I don't know why every guys are the same. I mean it. Do ugly people deserve everything bad or worse? & the prettiest deserve the best thing ever? I don't know. I am lack of confidence now. Big Sigh.

xxx.

Whatever is it, I need to study hard. Rock my life.

P.s/ I love you,
from Idk when,
Yea, not CC, but you.

If I tell you I love you,
could that be enough for you to love me back? (:

Lovely.

2010-05-17T15:12:00.000-07:00

*waving hands*
Today is an important day.
Come On!
*scream&shout*

W-H-Y?

Jeng

Today is LEEHOM day!

I come to this cyber centre purposely just to throw this post in my blog
& yea, don't let this blog to die. (: *wink

LET"S SAY THIS TOGETHER

HAPPY 34 BIRTHDAY
TO MY HUBBY,
LEEHOM WANG, ALEXANDER
Loves'

P.s/ Guys about the college & hostel life will be the next post.
Don't give up on me.

fearless

2010-05-04T23:23:00.000-07:00

Currently turn into : Nothing on you by Bob. :D

God. I wish I were slim, gorgeous & elegant, and could get any man I want. =) -Jemima.J

Spot that. You know what? The sentence absolutely said out what I think everyday. Okay, as you all know, I've been rotting at my house about one month plus. & I got nothing to do in my house & I never go out that often like what I used to do last time. =(

Well, nothing special go on in my life, it's just seem boring & lifeless.

xxx.

Harlo! *shaking hands* My Man U won the match again & well, Chelseea won too! SUCK! Now the last match is on this Sunday. =) You will not know how much I hope Man U win the last match & Chelsea lose! =)

Okay, no matter what the results are, I will say that Man U is the only champion in my heart. You know, CHAMPION will go to Man U rii-ght? :) Smileeeeee.

Then F1 match is continue on this Sunday at Spain too. (: I am a big fans of Jenson Button. You know, the Champion of last year. =) Awesomeeee.

xxx.

There's South Africa in the picture.

FIFA WORLD CUP is just around the corner, people! WORLD CUP! You know WORLD CUP! :)
This year world cup will be held at SOUTH AFRICA. haha :D & 34 days to go till World Cup? :D

& then, there will be no Man U or Chelsea. Just ENGLAND. haha =D Okay, know what? I am a big fans of ENGLAND & BRAZIL. Yeah, deep down inside my heart, I support England more. :D You know right, Beckham mah thought he is not playing this year. Still he is love. :D

England is in Group C. Well, United States, Algeria and Slovenia is in Group C also. =D England will be the champion this year. Ya, have faith in them :D

xxx.

Okay. Tomorrow I will be check-in into my hostel & then I will get my ass to Low Yat to fix my this stupid laptop.

& then, 4 days more, which is Sunday I will be moving into hostel and stay. 5 days more, I will be start my course. God Bless Me. I will love my course. :D

xxx.

I love world cup much. Come on! England first match is VS United States. & this match will be at 13th of JUNE. :D

xxx.
Enough crap. :D
Bais people. Love me more. :D

Guess I will rather hurt than feel nothing at all,
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now,
& I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk & I need you now,
& I don't know how I can do without,
I just need you now. (:

It's funny when your cousin ask me to take care of you, but not your girlf.
It's funnier when your cousin ask me whether your girlf is a good girl or not.
It's funniest when I told your cousin that she is a good girl,
In fact, I hate her much, & apparently she ain't a good girl OKAY?!

Happiness.

2010-04-25T04:41:00.000-07:00

Hello Bello!
Great you all with my retard picture. (:

Well, I am suck in entertain my reader. :( Okay, I don't know how to blog in a vivid way but I will try, try, try.. err, I am trying & I know I will fail :( Suck.

Shout & Scream out loud :
Man Utd won the match last night! (:
3 : 1
Gratsssss :)

Whee' Okay, Imma happy, I mean it! Man Utd won the match. Those who know me will know that I LOVE Man Utd much! (: The team that full of spirit, the team that full of power! They're so cool. Last night match was so cool, I mean Nani! He scored in a cool way, it's shock when I saw it. (: & Giggs too. :)

There's a sad case too as in Sir Alex Ferguson has suggested Wayne Rooney is unlikely to play any further part in Man Utd’s bid. :( Gaaaaah. Nvm, he will play in World Cup in England team. (: Look forward. (:
Football news end.

xxx.
& now back to my lifestyle. Owh, how long I never talk bout my lifestyle uh? (:

I have a really bad news for myself, that is I think I can't watch the next F1 match, cause I will be in hostel that day. (: 9th of May I will officially move in to hostel. Well, I hope that my parents will send me into the hostel after the match, so pleasee. :)

xx.

I am currently rotting at my house nowadays. Rotting for one month already and I am sick and bored of it. -____- I wanna start my college life so badly, seriously. & I know I will regret once I start it. (:

My dad is being random today. Just now, he suddenly talked to me, conversation as below :

dad ; me
Dad : Eyh, you know you study what in your course?
Me : Quantity Survey lah, if not?
Dad : Oh, You know what's that about ah?
*he doesn't kow that* -___-
*he asked this question for N times before.*
Me : Duh, about the cost of a building laaah, &
it's like calculate and estimate the cost.
Dad : Oh, you know ah, this one ah, the course is so cold.
Me : I know, then?
Dad : Means that just some big company will hire this kind of people.
Me : Owh.

Obviously, I don't know what is the point he trying to say. He always suddenly pop up one sentence to talk with us. So retard. (:

So, I promise! I will study hard then play hard. Hope to get scholarship or lend loans! (:
I love my parents. (:

xxxxx.
Here come some SS pictures, so if you don't want to see, please click Alt+F4 now! (: whee'

I took these pics with my laptop (:

Retard! (:

These two pictures, Like Get Shocked?
But I love! (:

Spot my pimple :(
But who cares? I love this too. (:

Tho I don't look pretty but that's me! (:
The crazy & extraordinary one. (:

& I took this pic when I'm thinking bout...

Here come the end! (:
Tata.
Hope you guys enjoy reading (:

Selfishness.

2010-04-21T08:35:00.000-07:00

Man Utd! Go Go Go! (:

People are selfish. No doubt, we can view through many cases. Ask yourself, do you feel that people around you are selfish, include yourself. That’s the problems which cause the society become more and more dangerous. As we can flip through the newspaper, there are many cases around us happen because of selfishness.

Well, sometimes, I don’t know why you treat your friends so good when they treat you in the other way. Okay, maybe we shouldn’t treat people too good. Someone told me I treat my friends too good, concern too much and they don’t even appreciate it and they will not treat you as good as you treat them so why should we, people treat others too well? It’s useless and worthless, right? (:

That person told me, never treat people too well even though is your best friend and I smile and answered him, I trust my friends. Well, now, the reality proves it to me that I am wrong. Dang. How many times I argue with my parents because of my friends? & now reality told me that I shouldn’t do these. I should be more selfish. Stop meanness. From now onward, treat myself better. (: Okay, let’s see.
Big Good News. My Man U won the match last Saturday (Man U vs Man City)with the result 1-0, you will not know how happy I am, because celebrate Kgai Ter birthday so I miss the match. Sad case. Big Sigh. I should watch it man. & I have another great big news too, that is Chelsea lose their match. Wheeee’ & now, Man U are just less one mark to Chelsea so go go go go Man U!

Still, Rooney is LOVES

Fyi,First will be the stupid Chelsea with 77 marks.

Man Utd is second with the marks 76 :) :) :)))

Arsenal is third with 71 marks.

Look, Next match will be this Saturday

Man Utd :D vs Tottenham

& also the F1. Oh, come on! I miss the F1 match too what turf! because of the freaking 6 hours amali. My F1 match at ShangHai last Sunday heard that was stimulated. I shouldn’t miss it. Ahhhhhh, I miss football & F1 match, how could I??!!

Good news is in that match My J.Button got the first, well, L.Hamilton got second then third is N.Rosberg and Alonso got forth then Massa got ninth. J.Button is so cool. The first driver standing goes to J.Button with 60 marks. Second is N.Rosberg(50). Third is F.Alonso (49) , then forth is L.Hamilton(49) too, fifth is S.Vettel (45). & well, Massa got 6th with 41 marks.

Then come the constructor standing. First goes to McLaren with the marks 109, then Second goes to Ferrari 90 marks & thirs is RBR(Renault) 73 marks. (: & Next race will held at SPAIN. Owh, Spain, come on, J.Button! Show your spirit at SPAIN too! (: Loves you man!

Don’t know from when on, I become F1 fans. Yes, maybe is him, the boy who makes me have F1 fever, thanks him too. If not him, I will not love F1 that much. About the football fever, I think I love football from Standard 4 or 3 onward.

Flashback moments, I gave out my football virgin to my whole relatives. Still remember we sat in front of the TV together and watched the world cup match. & from that time onward, I fall to David Beckham. Hahaha :D Beckham is love, you will not know how cool he is if you never see him play football. Trust me, you will love him once you see him play. (: He is way too cool.
Enough crap. Haha :D Okay, less than a month I will start my course. I need to become a nerd already. 8-) Never let my parents down again, I promise myself.
I need to get a good result and get scholarship. I used up my parents too much money.
-Save money.
-Study Hard.
-Get Scholarship and more.
-Become not anti-social.
-Become a leader can lead people.
-Train to be a best student in College.
Hope that college isn’t that tough that I thought.
+Enjoy my college life,
+enjoy my hostel life, and
+enjoy my nerd life too.
Well, study hard and play hard too.

Rock my life.

P.s/ I hate your girlf
Happy 4th months anniversary to you.
I will not care anymore
& I hate you, Mr.Sunshine.

Bestties are ♥

2010-04-11T05:13:00.000-07:00

Quote of the day:

Happy that I have these besties! (:

First of all, I need to type this post in a very fast speed so got any error typing just forget bout it! (:

Okay come on! I am emo few days ago! Ouch, that's hurt! Okay until I knew that I got tons of besties beside me and tell me hey, that boy just worthless for you to drop a tear for him. & yet I stop crying and stop emo! Why do I still care? Get Off and suck cock lah! I am such a rude rude girl but like I care? This is so Kahyee! (:

Okay, next I wanna thank thanks thanksss this fella, my lovely tbff! Chong Chu Xin with a post in her blog! I knew! I knew it all. (: I knew he such a suck boy but I don't know why I will care him so much. haha :D Whatsoever, now, the feeling for him was stop inside my heart! (:

Wheeee' my typing is super uber fast now! Cause I am rushing to watch my Man U match at 8.55pm later! wheeee' Ahhh, Man U go Man U go Man U go go go! Don't Loss Please! GO GO GO! Man U!

Man U vs Blackburn in ten mins later! Ciao!

I hate you,
sucker!
I mean it,
Liar!

Untrutable. :X

P.s/ Tomorrow I am going to a interview,
I hope I pass the job! please.
I need job badly, I need money! (:

Found a passage just now, hope you all view it cause it is meaningfull and it's true! (:

如果两个人分手之后做了朋友,那说明我从来没爱过你，如果两个人分手以后依旧可以做分手之前做的事,那说明我想让你记住我，如果两个人分手之后我不再见你并大声说我恨你,那说明我不舍得离开你，如果两个人分手之后在彼此的世界消失了,那说明我真的爱你。

分手时,沉默是最好的问题,最圆满的答案.恋爱是甜蜜的,分手是难免的.

谁不是哭过几次,痛过几次,才找到最后的爱.分手是必经的,但有些问题不必问.

1.不要问:为什么要分手.
无论答案是什么,都是你难以接受的原因.

2.不要问:你有没有爱过我.
爱过如何,未爱过又如何,总之这一刻就是不爱.

3.不要问:我做错了些什么.
爱不是讲对错,而是讲感觉.相爱是谈情,不是讲理.当爱的感觉已经不存在,对或错又可以挽回些什么

4.不要问:我有什么不好.她有什么好.我有什么比不上她.
何必逼对方,再一次侮辱你,打击你的自信心.

5.不要问:难道你不记得我们以前快乐的日子了么.
她/他要离开你,就是因为她/他要现在的快乐,和将来的快乐.

6.不要问:不如我们重新来过.
这个哀求,只会让对**得你更可怜,更卑微.

7.不要问:我们以后还可不可以做朋友.
这样拖泥带水,对方只会感到厌烦.

爱是最美好的记忆.爱过了,曾经拥有过了,就要学会知足,何必为难对方,让曾经的美好变了味道.让她/他曾经给过的温柔成为孤独时温暖自己的美妙的回忆.回忆是美丽的…珍藏走过的轨迹…握紧现有幸福…
& all of these qsts I asked more than 3! :(
I am such a failure, ain't me? :(

Worthless.

2010-04-04T00:29:00.000-07:00

I guess, this post will be such a long long loonnnggg post. (:

Yesterday, I finally have the mood to clean up my that messy messy room. I used up the whole day to clean my room. (: Pheeewww, like finally. & guess what? I found out many memories of you & me and well, apparently I din throw everything instead of keeping in a nice box.

& I found out one passage I've written on SPM's Mathematic question paper. I am a geek. So I wanna to type everything here and if I offend anyone, I am sorry bout it. =/

SHOULD START A NEW LIFE!

Gonna forget the old person & try to accept the new person who're willing to love you at present. Learn to forget the pain that gain by the last relationship.

Learn to forget the old person & thanks him to hurt you so much so that you can find a person who're willing to love you at present. Thanks 'em for teach you a lesson that so-call-don't-fall-so-much-in-every-relationship.

Boys are always shucks. They're always hurt those girls who were really love 'em & they don't care whatsoever the girl has devoted for 'em, they just simply screw up those girls.

Boys are not worth to let us, girls to devote so much & fall so much for 'em because they will hurt us deeply & hold other girl in front of you & they don't know we, girls deserve someone better than 'em.

It's stupid to fall for someone who you know that he will not fall for you ever. It's more stupid that when you tell him you love him & he ignored you then you're still loving him. The most stupid thing is when you know the boy had a girlf & he loves her much but you still think that you have a chance for him to love you back.

The suckiest thing in the world is something that hurt you deeply instead of you love someone & that person fool you with your heart.

First, we meet up. Second, We hug and kiss. Third, We play games. Forth, we break up nor divorce. This is what we call Love Game, perhaps?

What is LOVE? Chase when you're fall for her/him. Next, chill with 'em. Then, get bored. Last, break up! That're the routine of love.

End of typing everything. Finally.

Besides, today is the F1 day, & is in Malaysia at Sepang. First, I thought I got the ticket, & I was excited on it then two days after got a call from you & you, retard told me that you need to give your girlf for no reason? Nah! Everything happen for a reason, don't tell me there're no reason.

This is L.Hamilton

This is J.Button

This is Alonso when he is still Renault team.

Besides, Alonso starts at 19. Jenson Button starts 17 & L.Hamilton starts at 20. FTW! Why? Why? Why? waaait, someone told me that Massa is the best! HELL NO! I hate him. hahaha :D Go Button Go Hamilton! GO GO GO! (:

Fine. Everything was over. But I am glad that you still call me for telling me the race's result. (: hahahha :D I hate your girlf, again. I am gonna say it out. I hate her for some reasons. & still I miss you badly. (:

Man U!

Rooney! Yoh, the lovely shorty fatty. ♥

Not forget this, Man U vs Chelsea match, 2 - 1 Man U lost. :( Sad case. How could Man U lost again? I hate Chelsea. Sigh. Moody when I watched the match. Rooney still ♥ hahaha (:
Rooney go go go! Get well soon, please! Man U Go GO GO! Man U rock always!!!! (:

P.s/ I am still love Beckham muchhhh ♥♥♥
The pic I kept for so long dy. (:

Enjoy Reading!!!

Tata,
Finally finish my long long post!
It's time to say BYE BYE
With Loves,
Kahyeeeeee :)

Miss

2010-03-31T08:36:00.000-07:00

Out of the blue,

I Do Miss You Badly. :(

I wonder, can I hold your hand again?

Ahh, dream on!

Do I mention that,

I hate your girlf.

Not to lie,
cause I envy
&
I never like her before.

Thats all I blog.

43 words. =/

Stay tough.

2010-03-15T02:43:00.000-07:00

Quote of the day :
So, So what?
I'm still a rock star!

Zip your mouth
& stop blah blah blah

Getting my ass here again! (: Duh, waaaiit, I ain't emo okay? Just over-emotional & somehow, mood swing. Weird! No doubt, who call I have 100% of randomness. (:

Sometimes I wanna talk about something to someone but at the end, I couldn't find anyone. Great one, kahyee! First of all, I know what myself want & yes, you don't step in my life to ruin me on cause that's my life not yours, bugger! But not forget to say the thanks that you've gave me many suggestions however you don't fucking know what I need and think.

Right, no one know one's thought well just because you ain't that person, you can't get 'em so do I. Please, don't use your thought and tells mine because you're not me and you can't be me. (: Besides, I am not those people who hate one after you scolded me so no worries. Oh please, I am those let bygone by bygone type not those stubborn type. & of course, I know that forgive a person is a polite way, so you have my forgiven! (:

Well, I am suck! Hell suck but I am way better than someone. Anyhow, I know what myself need and what myself want so don't ever step in my life again! Don't you please! Just that you ain't me, don't try to say you know what am I thinking! Hell No! Shucks!

FML FML FML! Look, that's me & my life! Screw it! Right, screw it! Well, my blog is not a private blog so I don't care you see it or not! I don't care what comment you've gave! You think I care? Hell No! WHeee' That's me! the Kahyee's style always! I din put this blog as private cause I know you will see but LIKE I CARE? wheeee' (: You can judge it but please don't tell your own stories to my parents when you don't know what the hell am I trying to blog about.

Besides, I know my attitude suck cock but this is just at home. First, I know I shouldn't be like this but hey, can you go and do some research why the hell my attitude will be worst like this. Fyi, once I step out of this house, I don't have this kind of attitude towards others. My attitude suck to the max but why don't you think about why the hell my attitude will be worst like this? ISH! You ain't me, you don't know any single thing bout me so stop step in and lend a hand to me cause I don't need!

Phew, finally I have express out everything out! What if you see it? What if you tell everyone that i am not filial? What if....? LIKE I CARE!? hahahah :D

My lovely quote these days:
LIKE I CARE!

Besides, do follow me on my twitter!
http://twitter.com/homaniacx
Cause Im lazy to blog! (: hahaha

Roads.

2010-03-09T08:41:00.000-08:00

I get this feeling we'll be together again.
No straight lines make up my life, all roads have bends.
No clear cut beginings and so far no dead ends.

Oh harlo, readers! Yours truly get her ass here due to her emo-ness. Great! Emo again, thanks to *someone. (: Fyi, I often feel emo these days as I tell myself not to! *breath in & out*

Oh, I've a lot to say, just a couple of minutes before, they're many things come out in my mind in a sudden. Well, those who knows me well will know that I am a totally random person with having 100% of randomness. Wheeeee' (:

Sometimes we should turn around & look back the past even if the wind hit the memories strong, sometimes the fog is out there but still we can't dim the bliss. We should count how many frequency of touch inside our heart & who is the one that accompany you being insane & laugh like nobody business when you're down then we learn how to persue, how to love together.

We need to go through how many loves only we, people can see it clear after balks? How many affairs are unable us to offset it and we just can admit those defeats? How many times do people need to think that they have found their bliss then end up we, the people get disapointed? I wonder, do people sick of this kind of routine?

Well, at least we discover that it's a beautiful mistake to begin these roads. Readers, every single road is a section of grasp for me. Every single road unavoidable some paths overgrown with bramble but we need to go through it. We need to stay tough even though there are tons of bramble in it.

Pearl is still eye-dazzling but still we can't remain what our heart go to. The wholehearted inspire can mild my journey of a lifetime. I am always telling myself that grip, insist and sturdy, don't afraid of difficult and dangerous. (:

Learn how to love, solely unable to wander.

when the moment you stand in front of me,
I love the expression in your eye.
you caught my sight!
though yesterday I cried,
because today you are here,
tomorrow I'll be bliss.
Don't care about your look,
Don't care about your demeanour,
I just need your love with gentle & clemently.
Years of all bygone,
I will able to forget.
Nowadays without you,
even a single day also unable to get by.
iloveyou.

Face it

2010-03-06T05:04:00.000-08:00

- There's no point in being grown up if you can't be childish sometimes.

Stun. I am a fail blogger, I know. I don't know how to blog anymore, seriously, I lost all my blogging mojo & the blogging style.

I do enjoy my current life. It's like I am busy in my job, fyi, I work as a tutor and I don't need to think about so many things, ya, I am escaping all stresses & I just don't want to face it. I do love those people in my working place, they're just funny enough. (: Well, they never fail to make me laugh out loud, especially the Ken cause he is like our ji mui! Well, not to lie, the boss of mine are best enough. She is the best boss I ever met & sometimes I really feel sorry to her. & there's time that I feel bored there. eeeekkk =I

No doubt, I feel like escaping the reality. What a failure Fong Kahyee is. Know what? Next Thursday, it's a terrible holy mama day for me. A day that can judge how my future will be & it's just a paper will do. Well, doesn't it sounds ridiculous? God, can you hear me? Can I have a big great surprise on that day, please. & hey, people, don't ever ask me how many As' I get. I will tell if I want to, if I don't please don't ask.

I have grown up, I know. I don't feel like argue with mum anymore but why things always have a change? I try to talk nicely with her but everytime I am sure that both of us will be arguing non-stop & everytime argue about the same thing, I sick of it. Sometime I feel like being a child, don't need to think much & do whatever I want to, how great? Grown up, face reality, choose your future. See so many things you want to think bout! I am just HATE it.

I need a new life, ya, I need. A life that I could escape the outside life & stay in the hostel being a nerdio that facing books in every seconds & keep studying studying studying non-stop. I want my future have a wonderful full-stop, have a rainbow endings & I don't want it to be a dull life. Heard that a-level's lifestyle is stress so you will not be seeing I am so stressless when I start my college life but still I look forward on it. I have a target for myself, due to some personal reasons, I need a best result for my A-level. Look, I mean BEST! so I will be a totally NERDIO, like this > 8-I wheee' I know it's cute!

Do I mention I have a new BFF lately? LOL. :D Okay, I never mention here. Let me introduce him to you all, he is a lousy nabet stupid negative oh-so-pureless-boy, WenHan, Chai. Wheee' Just so you know when negative charge and negative charge it will beome positive charge right? & this is what we are. No doubt, both of us like some aliens & whatever both of us talk, just both of us know what we're talking bout, others like uh-huh? what are both of you talking, then we will laughing non-stop! (: This is what BFF are! To be honest, he is a cute boy! I mean cute in somewhere not his look. wheee' (: ♥

People come and go, but there will be someone who will stay in your heart forever & officially is the right one. Just now chat with you & I feel that there's a gap between us. :( Sad case. Seriously, I never have this feeling before. You sound so strange for me, when I told you so, you just say aha. I don't know what should I do, but think bout it, maybe you've your happy life & don't need me anymore. Well, it's sad to lost a BFF like you. You know you're the one who I trust the most & I don't feel like losing you. I don't wanna have any gap between us. Honestly, sometime I do jealous your girlf for some reasons. Someone, teach me how to make this gap disappear? & I will do my best to make this gap disappear. (:

'Stay' is a charming word in a friend's vocabulary

Beside, kahyee, listen,
this is life not heaven, so don't need to be perfect! (:

I need to be more confident in someway.
Ya, it's time to have a real CHANGE.
the best of luck!
I know you can do it, KY!

Changes. (:

2010-02-19T09:32:00.000-08:00

& that's me! (:
* wink

Hey cause I am down, so down right now so here is a post that will make myself happy. (: Wheeeee'

& this when I am form 2. (:

When I am form 3.
This is kahyeeeee!
The so call lap sap mui!

Before SPM,
Haven't dye my hair to dark brown.

& this when it was a brown! (:

& here's after SPM is long and have a strawberry blonde colour hair.

& for sure,
Have some SS pictures.
What girls love?
SS loh.
& some candid pictures!

Here come the lala kahyee!
with her lala hair!
LOL LOL LOL :D
LALA? No?
YES!

Furthermore, have another hair cut before Chines New Year!
I have a

short hairrrrrr!

& naaaaah!
I am still stay it long!
Get cheated?
GREAT!

Now, due I dontwanna be a lala,
I dye my hair to red & of course Chinese New Year mah!
Ang Ang * hokien?*
LOL :D

& that's the end!
Here is the changes!
& hey people,
I wanna be H.O.T!
Someone is training me!
Gimme 3 months time! LOL :D

Turth.

2010-02-19T00:26:00.000-08:00

At last, I know, what we call F.R.I.E.N.D! & I notice that who is the true friend and who is not. What I know is friend suck like you, I will never call you a friend anymore! Seriously, you are not a boy! Listen to what I say, you are the suckiest guy I ever meet in my life! You suck to the ground! After tonight, I will hate you to the max that I can. You are not a boy! I could never find a guy that can worse than you anymore! Suck boy!

Notice this : Because I ain't pretty and gorgeous enough so no one will treat me as a friend but others are hot and gorgeous enough so people keep treat the person good. What I can say is, Bare with the truth! :( & I am not that gorgeous so yeah, treat myself better is the way that keep myself happy. :D

& the boy I mention up is ltk. (:
Bye people! (:
& I hate him to the max!

Queenlet (:

2010-02-10T08:40:00.000-08:00

Before I start anything in this post,
I got two videos to show up! (:
& If my Monkey see this,
she will definitely kill me as well! (:

First, this post will be hell bored. I don't know what should I blog. Lifestyle? Emo? Or... Haha. Just so you know, kahyee isn't those blogger who post in a funnay way cause I am suck enough with my humor.

Sometimes things will turn out right and for sure things will turn wrong most of the times and what we can do is, accept it, bear with it, try to solve it in a best way without hurting any one. Still, we must be stronger and tougher when things are wrong and nothing is right! (: Show people the queen it over style! (:

People need to stump out something when you wanna gain something but sometimes after we stump out, we gain nothing also but it's worth right? At least you try! (:

No doubt, I miss school, miss every old things much! I miss school memories! My high school! These days my facebook flood of Form5 students' pictures! & I am freaking regret! REGRET that why why why that time (last year) I took so less pics. :( Memories all gone! Luckily I still have some videos here! (:I miss old days like childhood! How much I hope I can turn back the time and back to those days when I am four or five! (: Innocent kahyee is cute! Should show you all one day! (:

Ohhh, do I mention that I get used to my job already? (: I don't care anything already! Just do everything I need to, others, I will not bother! (: Finish marking 3 forms' test papers and I found out something which I couldn't tell here! (: I will talk to someone once they talk to me first! (: hahaha :D This call CHUN! (:

I should stop here! (:
Next post will be flashback ! (:

Scroll down

look

lil' cute cousin! (:

Jeng

jeng

jeng!!!!!!

Scrollll!!!!!

Seeeeee!
She's adorableeeee! (:
Like me!

Stay strong, Kahyee
Be yourself!
Love more, hate less!
Tata,
Bye! (:
Meesyu meesyu! (:

You know I ♥ you!

2010-02-07T06:24:00.001-08:00

You know what? Your truly, kahyee had a haircut today! & great, having a fresh look is good but I am a totally LALA now with my new hairstyle. -.-

Oh, crap! Seriously I am not happy from Mon to Fri! Know why? Come ask me if you really want to know! & I am so not Kahyee from Mon till Fri. Sigh. Give you all some sad looks. :( :( :(

& good! I lost my logging mojo! & I am lazy enough to blog. I don't know how to blog anymore! :( Just, Sat & Sun is ♥! Know why? Cause I am a totally Kahyee! I am like oh kahyee's back to the town! (: wheee' Loves ya.

Hanging out with Choong Lye and Kahyen is like a must for weekend! -.- & the best thing for this week is I got to hang out with my Ann yesterday! Oh, I miss her hell lots! (:

Good! Seriously, I don't know what to blog anymore. Follow me on twitter or msn me! (: Loves'

See when,
I will blog again
with my lovely blogging mojo!
& great!
One week till Chinese New Year!

You're the best! (:

2010-01-31T00:17:00.000-08:00

Due to Kahyee's laziness, I will not update anything bout Genting. & All the pics are uploaded on my facebook. (:
Notice this : Pictures can't tell anything. What I can say is, I used to smile when in front of the camera. I sin't happy for some personal reasons. (:

I am officially back from

G.E.N.T.I.N.G!

the blogging mojo is coming!

Wait until I wake up from my nap!

I will tell everything out!

Wait for me!

Reveal.

2010-01-24T09:11:00.000-08:00

Everyone changed so do me. & hey guys, I don't wanna to be emo but sometimes I just can't bear with myself. haha. That's great!

Did I mention that I don't wanna to be 18? Ya, I mentioned! Lame enough. Okay, I don't want to choose anything though sometimes I am just way too choosy. I admit that I am a coward, I am just too scare that I will choose the wrong decisions & I know that no matter what I've choose, I can't give up on it and this is the most hectic thing.

Celebrate Dennis Birthday with the S4 gang. Oh No Buh Bah, it's weird. I know and I just knew that I am so anti-social. God! I spoke less than ten sentences with whole bunches of 'em, scary! (: But still, not to lie, it's bored but it's a nice try in going to Jaya One! (: Great! All pictured with JunYong,L. (:

Before that, headed to MidValley for the Education fair and we went to Paddlington House of Pancake to have a try and hey, the pancake was just way too awesome! (: Love it much and have a really great gossips with ChoongLye and Monkey!

& I think I do love my job right now. Enjoy life! LOL :D I can get along with all my associates. They're cute enough! hahaha :D LOL :D & caring too & hey guys, I am going to Genting with 'em! (: Hope it will be a nice trip and no regrets! (:

Is my sunshine over there?

2010-01-20T07:24:00.000-08:00

P.s/ Where is this Kahyee at? =(

I promised I will update my blog more often so this is the reason why I get my ass here right now & hey, look at your clock or watch, it's almost 3am now. (:

P.s/ Memories are mean to be keep & I do want old times back!

Everyone changed, it's terrible. I changed lots, really lots. It's a sad case for me. Sigh. I don't know what should I blog about but I just feel like blogging, it's weird I know.
I am very lost now, without any direction, without someone guide me, I am so lost. I know, seriously, I know I should be more independent but sometimes I just couldn't. Sigh. I lost my laugh, my smile, my craziness, my monkey-style, my hyperness, my donkey-ness, & I lost the talkative me. Sounds horrible. I am just lost myself & all my characteristic that I used to be. =(

Don't ask me whether am I fine not because I am tired enough to bluff and smirk at you and telling you white lies that I AM SO FINE but actually I am so not hell fine. :( I don't wanna to be emo. I tried my best to laugh like mad but I couldn't, I tried my best to be back the innocent kahyee and I couldn't. I feel like break down again, I am having some harsh time. :(

P.s/ Will this sunshine belongs to me?

I don't wanna the life I am having now. It's totally shucks to the ground. People are terrible, truths are always cruel and losing myself is like losing the whole world. I am so not fine. I am breaking down.
May I know where's my sunshine? May I know who will be my Mr/Mrs Right that help me out of these? May I know what I will be in my next days?

P.s/ SERIOUSLY, I MISS MY STUDY LIFE!
I WANT IT BACK SO BADLY!
SEE THOSE DAYS, THOUGH STUDY IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!
BUT AT LEAST I AM HAPPY!
i do miss high school badly. =(

Question marks are full in my mind. I just don't want to be alone. I just don't want to be too independent. I want to be back a child. I want my old life back. I want everthing back to the old time again.
& I know I am totally dreaming now.

tata,
lovesss, kahyee here.
the monkey-fanshu style,
you know you love me.
tomorrow will be a better day.

Tonight will be the night.

2010-01-19T09:33:00.000-08:00

& This is the fella who I will meet her everyday!
Wanna know why,
Stay tuned for my next post, I'll tell you why.

Miss. Loong Kah Yen

It's been a long time since I blog. Oh, just realize I am a suck blogger ever. Don't blame me for not blogging for such a long time because I don't know why my blogging mojo ran away from me & I guess it came back to me in this moment and this is why I am here now.

Hey Readers, though it's late but still I should've to say *wavinghands* Goodbye, my dearly lovely '09 & Hello to this suck '10. Whatever it is, I hope this blardy new year will bring me some great success & give me more luck.

P.s/ I miss those days when I was wearing school uniform & PJPK shirt. =(

God damn it. You guys will not know how much I love '09. Sigh. I always murmur that why the times need to fly so fast, why couldn't it stop for us? I am going to turn 18 this year which I don't want to. Big Big Sigh. I miss high school life, those innocent days, those whatever days, those happy moments with all friends but now eveything have a full-stop and everything have changes. Some of 'em started their college life, busy with homeworks & assingnments, & some of 'em go for NS & of course a part of 'em are working. :( Sad case that we can't do whatever we want anymore.

P.s/ & This is the recently me & I f*king hate it! =(

I love my high school much which I never think I will love it so much when I was inside the school. Catholic High is always the best for me, those best memories are there. Ouch, I don't want to leave this school, I want my whole bunches of friends back! I do want the time turn back! =( I hate my life now, seriously. Don't ask me why, I just hate it. =( I jealous my brother that can go back to school meet his friends and talking like nobody business there.

I miss my laugh, my craziness, my monkeyness, my daibness in high school. Now, I can't do it like this anymore. Everything change in this world, how come? =( I miss those days. Seriously, I miss all of 'em in high school. Where are all of you?

P.s/ I wonder when I will laugh like this again? =/

I will blog more from today onward.
I will blog what I am doing recently. (:
Stay tuned.
tata,
the monkey hyper kahyee here.
Always be the one! (:

It's the night.

2009-12-26T21:42:00.000-08:00

16 of Dec. Yea, right, it's the promenade for CHS students. Gaaaah, I thought it will be hell fun but oh, it doesn't came out like what I've expected or should I said I've expected too much fun on it? Owh, whatever it is, prom was over so just forget bout it.

We've the Jinn inside prom & ECX? (I not sure the dance group's name)

Monkey fetch me at 10am then head to JaySze's house then make up & hair then Huey's house waiting JunKai's coming. (:
Due to my laziness, I will not blog everything out. wheeee' So let the pictures below do some talking.

& oh, I hate the make up on my face & same go to my hair. I just hate my look on prom that day. Don't blame me for too choosy because if you're me you willn't love it tho. (:

Our Table's people. (:
I joined S5. (:

This is the DRUMMERS! (:
& we were inside the dancing group there. (:

Spot the women word. (:
Outside the washroom! (:

My 5P1-ians! Oh, left out many of 'em

Ignore my hand. -.-
& here's the australian who called Joseph. (:

& hey, here's the Prom King for 09'

Jaysze ; Kahyen ; Kahyee
We were always do something stupid like this.
& oh, that's my hairstyle, back view! (:

Kiss me ; Kiss me not.

E.C.X ?

Wearing AnXin's coat! (:
& oh, I love myself inside this look. (:
Kahyen & Jin
ZhiHuey & Jin.

Due to the laziness, more pictures on my facebook! Click inside and view it! (: I know I am late! :)

Next coming post : Langkawi class trip! (:

Time to be happy.

2009-12-24T23:40:00.000-08:00

Okay, Know whaaaaat? After torturing and suffering the past nine months, errr, okay, maybe some months I am happy but blahhhhh, who cares? Now is time for me to cheer and be happy right?

First of all, I went to hunt some prom thingy with yea, my Monkey, Huey & KgaiTer. Owh, that day is my love. & know what, shopping with girls are killing yourself. hahaha :D That day, if I am not wrong, err, we shopped from 12pm to 11pm. Gosh, it's almost 12 hours there, non-stop walking and hey, we never stop for a drink or meal.

Oh, should thanks KgaiTer. He is a good boy which never complaint of tiring of walking so much and company us walk here and there so long. & oh, he took the things we bought also. (: What a nice boy here and hey, he is still available so girls, take it ! (:

So I can't remember all things we did that day cause it's just too long ago. Err, you know, I am old already, short term memory I had now, so just let some pictures do all the talking. (:

Okay, due to my smart-ness, I dont know I press wrong what and which button all things gone so haha, and I am lazy so I will not upload all pics again. :) So everything on facenook! SPOT there please. (:

ZhiHuey Tan. Her prom dress! (:

Monkey & the Gorila! (:
KgaiTer Lim (:

Oh, my lovely monkey! (:

Picture of the day, just so you know,
I love this pic much.
Thanks KgaiTer! (:

Okay, next post should be : Prom Prom Prom!
haha :D When I am free, I'll get this blog update.
Just priase that I will not be lazy!

Tata,
byeeee, loves'
The monkey pig fanshu style. (:
*wink

Oh, kahyee is here.

2009-12-21T23:23:00.000-08:00

Oh readers, due to some personal reasons, I deleted all old posts and start a new life again. (: What a random person I am. wheee' (:

As I promised, I will close down the old blog instead of deleted every old posts. (: So now here I am starting everything all over again.

Oh, god bless, I hope that this oh-so-new blog don't have any emo posts like last time cause I am a happy happy girl right, don't me? hahaha :D

Love me, the monkey pig fanshu style.

Next few posts, outing in hunting prom thingy, Prom & Langkawi trip! (: